Gaia Community: Nicola's Blog

Year's End...

http://inducingconsciousness.gaia.com — Thu, 31 Dec 2009 22:51:45 GMT

I like when I slip into awareness, God’s loving arms, and there is no thought about technique, or having to solve any problems. There is a simple bringing myself to the doorway, so to speak, in innocence and the purest desire for Oneness. Letting go of all matters that Source does not attend to. Surrendering myself to feeling, to being. In this space, there is such power and possibility... Brilliance and light.

One of the most magical times in the day, is when I first wake up. Everything feels fresh and new. There is a gentle ease and softness that surrounds me. There is a sweetness that is present with no necessary linking connection. Sometimes a deep enveloping silence greets me. Other times, a distant bird song, or the lulling calm of my breath.

In this space, it feels like my heart beat swells and expands. There is no clear starting or ending point. The feeling just is and I open to the magic of it. I feel like I am lying in an invisible cradle. Imperceptibly swaying from side to side in a cushion of peace.

From this perspective, the world is dusted with a vibration of love and beauty. What I am is perfectly mirrored and reflected back to me.

Three blackbirds singing and flying in synchronistic harmony out there. Alignment in their every move. They perform a beautifully orchestrated dance amidst the trees and the cloudy sky.

Source’s default setting is light. I can imagine a gigantic beam that scans and finds the treasure of goodness that resides in each of us. Bypassing all else and steadily concentrating on even that tiniest spark that will inevitably blossom and grow with attention.

With every creation that I encounter in the day, I can turn my searchlight on. Illuminating, appreciating and magnifying all of the goodness that I discover.

And so it is.

(This journal entry was written December 9, 2009)

Tags: perspective, God, awareness, limitations, love, Oneness, surrender

Dreaming of Home...

http://inducingconsciousness.gaia.com — Thu, 31 Dec 2009 17:59:30 GMT

Dreaming of Home…

(Written November 2, 2009)

In my dream last night, I was taken away from my home and all that was familiar. This theme of finding myself on unfamiliar ground has happened repeatedly in the past. Feeling lost with a strong desire to get back home. Often through complicated mazes, underground tunnels or strange lands.

Last night, I was spirited away by an odd woman who was surrounded by equally strange people. Nobody would listen or help me to get away. No one had a phone or money that I could borrow to make a call.

I believe that there were a couple of times when I woke up and knew that I was dreaming. I knew that I was home with my family. Going back to sleep though and wanting resolution and a happy ending in my dream.

Back in the dream state, I had the thought that I didn’t have to subject myself to all of these ordeals. I could simply “spirit” myself back home with my loved ones. It was a dream after all.

There is a parallel for me in life, when I have encountered limitations. Areas where I feel stuck or hampered. A feeling of “I can’t.” There is often the accompanying knowledge that this is a self-imposed prison. There is the intellectual knowing that I am much bigger than these perceived limits. Yet, for the time being, I continue to scurry around feeling helpless and trapped. There is the awareness that it does not have to be this way.

Last night, there was a moment when I began viewing the dream from two viewpoints. One was lost and searching and the other, wise and detached.

From the higher vantage point, there was almost a sense that the lost wanderer could be picked up, like a game piece, and magically placed home. There was the feeling though of not wanting to rescue the lost one, but to allow them to find their own way back.

From the other viewpoint, there again was the realisation that I was dreaming and could put myself on “home base” if I chose and end the struggle / the illusion. Yet, a wanting to figure it out for some reason.

So, an energy of loving kindness patiently waiting on the sidelines for the “little me” to discover her way back home.

That touches me on so many levels. Gives me perspective of how I can be with my children when they need to uncover answers for themselves. I don’t have to do it for them. I can be a loving, guiding force for them as they find their own truth. Find their own way in the world.

Also sheds light on my perceived relationship with God. There is a loving guiding force, as I am gifted the freedom to find my way home.

This also shows me how I can be with myself when I am muddling around in the dark. To shine a compassionate, patient and loving light to guide me gently home.

Tags: dreams, spirit, limitations, awareness, perspective, God, love

New Day

http://inducingconsciousness.gaia.com — Mon, 14 Dec 2009 12:10:52 GMT

Precious breath drawn this morning. Taking in the soft cooing sounds from a mourning dove. I am with you in spirit to greet the day. God's blessings and we are here again to celebrate anew. A whole day before us. What gifts will it bring? How will we honour and cherish each rising second? How will we pass on and share the rich bounty we are presented with? Questions fade and nothing remains but loving silence. Our loving gift to each other is to breathe it in with great appreciation and then lovingly extend this sweet energy outwards.

Blessed be this day.

Tags: spirit, God, blessings, appreciation, prosperity, silence, prayer, love, energy

LOVE'S INNER CHAMBER

http://inducingconsciousness.gaia.com — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 23:29:51 GMT

Love’s Inner Chamber by Nicola G. Karesh

I enter the inner chamber and close the door. Immediately, there is the delightful impression that love’s happy cells rush to surround and greet me! Brings a smile to my face and warmth to my heart. God’s energy bubbles are doing the happy dance ‘cos I’m here!

There may or may not be actual happy bubbles sent out on a mission from God to welcome me! All I can speak to, is the feeling that I have as I rest in silence.
There is an energetic acknowledgment of sorts. Awareness greeting itself. Comfortable warmth, being somewhere that feels like home. Everything is alright in this space. All concerns are left at the door, for that is not why I am here.

Why am I here? Why have I come this very day, to sit in silence?

Words escape me, as I search to capture the essence of what fills my heart. Still, I seek the elusive, for I feel called always to share my truth.

I am here to give thanks. I am here as an expression of my love and devotion. I am here in answer to an inner call to come home. I belong here.

Every moment when I have turned my back on God, I deny myself. Every time I come from a small sense of “i,” I am denying the larger dimension of who and what I am.

This divine space calls me. Sometimes I get busy with other matters and don’t hear the eternal bell that rings for you and for me. It is always ringing. In precious moments of grace, I hear and I answer love’s call.

One day, we will sing a song of love together. One day, the feeling of love will touch everything. It will be all that we know. It will be all that we are.

That day is here and that moment is now. The choice is ours to rest in this space.

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Tags: meditation, love, God

Tender The Moment

http://inducingconsciousness.gaia.com — Sat, 14 Nov 2009 04:24:40 GMT

Tender The Moment

A memory encapsulated in time.
A portrait framed with desire.
A love sealed with a kiss.
Soft, tender the moment.

Delicate petals unfold their ivory innocence.
Caressed by the golden rays of the sun.
Dew drops glisten shyly.
Held by arching blades of grass.

Fresh scent of pine needles bursting.
Fill the morning air.
Pure, sweet the feeling.
Rising up everywhere.

My soul is blessed with goodness.
God’s grace fills my heart.
Soft, tender the moment
Blossoming wildly in the dark.

~ Nicola G. Karesh, Copyright © 2009 – All rights reserved.

Tags: love, soul, God, grace

SONG OF SILENCE

http://inducingconsciousness.gaia.com — Wed, 21 Oct 2009 13:25:54 GMT

Song Of Silence

My soul is longing to sing
And dance
With carefree,
Wild
Abandon.
Longing to pour its heart out
With a melody
Soft and true.
Longing to soar
And claim
Unknown heights.
Dizzy.
Breathlessly awaiting
An unseen partner
To rise up
And share the music
Playing silently
In my heart

Tags: love, spiritual, divine, God

Flame To My Heart

http://inducingconsciousness.gaia.com — Mon, 12 Oct 2009 12:47:41 GMT

FLAME TO MY HEART

Love begins as a flame,
That cuts across the skies
And shatters my heart
Into a million pieces of delight.

All there is,
Is the glow of candlelight,
That brings down the walls
And casts a flickering shadow
Against the impermanence of time.

Tags: love, God, spirit, unity

THE BREATH OF TIME

http://inducingconsciousness.gaia.com — Sun, 11 Oct 2009 03:40:08 GMT

THE BREATH OF TIME

Drifting along,
God’s innermost passage way.
Gazing up,
At the rise of the sun.

Shifting my tempo
The crescendo of heartbeats.
A cacophony of drumming
That settles my tongue.

Towering limestone,
Carved by salty caresses.
Ocean spray sculpting
Portraits in time.

My legacy is dawning.
I feel the power igniting.
Passions unfurl brilliantly
The dark corners of mind.

Steady the motion.
Honest the platform.
I stand alert in this moment
Jagged structure aside.

Portals that beckon
Calling rising motion to enter.
A dip of golden sun,
The breath of my time.

Tags: Spirituality, God, mind

Life's Promises

http://inducingconsciousness.gaia.com — Sat, 03 Oct 2009 04:40:26 GMT

This morning, I was drawn to an entry that I wrote last year, called “Devotion.” I was drawn to the feeling that my conversation with God is always a heartfelt experience of peace. That feels like the sweetest of promises to me and in this moment, it is such a welcome treasure. When I choose God’s will for me in any moment, I instantly open to an answer that is peace and an everlasting love that stretches beyond the bounds of my imagination.

Love and our capacity to choose however we experience, is at the forefront of my mind today. The fact that our existence on this earth is temporary and we never know when our time here is up, offers me perspective on how I can be. Using my precious days wisely as if they were my last ones. Sinking deeply into each gifted moment and really relishing the treasure of my life. Cherishing each divine soul that I encounter on my spiritual path, seeing myself mirrored back in countless ways. Blessing and acknowledging the power of this reflected gaze. Feeling the sweet and sometimes fierce grace that the Creator offers and knowing that every aspect is here to serve and bring me closer to home. Every second of "now" serves me with an unspoken gift to bring me home.

An excerpt from Adyashanti's book "The End of Your World: uncensored straight talk on the nature of enlightenement," comes to mind. It is beautiful, direct and simple in its message:

"It is very important to know that life itself is often our greatest teacher. Life is full of grace - sometimes it's wonderful grace, beautiful grace, moments of bliss and happiness and joy, and sometimes it's fierce grace, like illness, losing a job, losing someone we love, or a divorce. Some people make the greatest leaps in their consciousness when addiction has them on their knees, for example, and they find themselves reaching out for a different way of being. Life itself has a tremendous capacity to show us truth, to wake us up. And yet, many of us avoid this thing called life, even as it is attempting to wake us up.

The divine itself is life in motion. The divine is using the situations of our lives to accomplish its own awakening, and many times it takes the difficult situations to wake us up.

The irony is that most human beings spend their lives avoiding painful situations. Not that we are successful, but we are always trying to avoid pain. We have an unconscious belief that our greatest growth in consciousness and awareness comes through beautiful moments. We may, indeed, make great leaps in consciousness through beautiful moments, but I'd say that most people make their greatest leaps in consciousness in the difficult times.

This is something a lot of people don't want to acknowledge - that our greatest difficulties, suffering, and pain are a form of fierce grace. They are potent and important components of our awakening, if we're ready for them. If we're ready to turn and face them, we can see and receive the gifts that they have to offer - even if the gifts sometimes feel like they are being forced upon us. Whether the circumstance is illness, the death of a loved one, divorce, addiction, problems at work - it's important to face our life situations in order to see the inherent gifts that are available."

This week, our family received an unexpected curve ball from the Universe. No dodging or way to outrun what is before us. For me, there really is only one obvious choice these days, when life stands before you. Meet its gaze. Dive right in and experience fully what life has presented. Struggling and resistance prolong the inevitability of what is to be. No matter how things may seem, somewhere buried inside, there is value. Even the fierce grace is to be allowed and appreciated. In the lesson before us, there is the distant and beckoning glimmer of truth, freedom, sincerity and the courage to be real.

Tags: devotion, God, peace, love, choice, perspective, Adyashanti, enlightenment, grace, consciousness

Self Inquiry and Another Personal Lesson

http://inducingconsciousness.gaia.com — Sun, 13 Sep 2009 03:33:45 GMT

Self Inquiry and Another Personal Lesson

The other day, my next door neighbour called and I noticed that since her call, I have had a little bit of charge whenever I bring the incident to mind. When I first spoke to her, my initial thought, was that she was inviting me to some political event in our area, collecting money for a fundraiser or alerting me about our roaming bear! No such luck!

She wanted to know how long our trailer was going to be parked outside her house. Uh oh! I had the immediate sense that we should have warned her. We had someone clearing away a few leaning trees and they had parked the trailer for their track hoe on the grassy shoulder by the road. I later discovered that he himself had told her that he would be there for a few days and she had said okay. Never mind that though, as I certainly wasn’t aware of this when we spoke on the phone.

I felt myself go a little bit into confusion on the phone, wondering aloud where on earth the man was going to park the trailer. We have no frontage space on the road and we share the access to our long driveway through the woods with the neighbour. I excel at many things, yet common sense and practical matters have not always been my forte! There is a little voice in my head right now commenting, that that is just a story that I tell myself! As I was sorting things out and considering what to do, she abruptly concluded that if it wasn’t moved by tomorrow night, she would call the police!

I believe that in that moment, I was shocked. No other word for it. It’s a similar feeling I get (only definitely magnified in this case), when I ask something that I see as reasonable and my child looks at me and says flat out “No.” Similar feeling of being taken aback with this response. What do you mean “No?” What do you mean call the police? Call the police? No? From my perspective and obvious judgment in that moment, something about that seems odd, out of place and definitely out of whack! I clearly have some mistaken belief that reason will be met with reason. There is also something underlying about liking order in my world.

I think that I was silent and stunned for a few minutes before I reacted and told her that she could go ahead and do that then! I know that in that very moment, I reverted to a moody teenager full of spice and fire. I adopted a kind of “don’t mess with me” attitude! The cantackerous caged dog was let loose and was now ready to bite! All very old and familiar. Naturally from that wondrous space, I called up the police to check the legalities of the matter. The dispatcher was helpful and obviously all about keeping the peace. The government owned a portion of that grassy area and I was clear in saying that I hadn’t a clue whether or not we were on the neighbour’s property or not. If they were called, the police would come out and talk to us both and if we were on her land, they would ask the owner to remove the offending item.

I later discovered that 30 feet (or yards?) from the center line belongs to the government. The tree cutting man was certain that he was on government property but was himself amazed as he had warned her that he was going to park there when he had seen her at the mail box. Well, I guess he can do his own processing if he has any!

All kinds of things came to mind. Smart answers and childish deeds that I could do to probably have my say and the last word! Jeez, isn’t reactivity and the ego something!

For the whole day, I kept feeling amazed and stunned by her unexpected response. I called her back and told her that I was shocked because we had never ever had one single negative interaction. It felt like something that came out of left field. I didn’t see it coming and was really unprepared with how to deal with it. For the most part, I am surrounded by people who seem to behave in a “decent” and “responsible” manner and life moves smoothly. Even when these “decent” people throw me, what amounts to a curve ball, they are open to change or do seem to care about another’s feelings.

So what do we really have here for me, because it always comes back to the individual. What’s first coming up for me, is a lesson about acceptance. Allowing everything to be as it is. There is obviously judgment on my part about how she “should” behave and what constitutes “proper” behaviour. Acceptance means that she gets to be however she chooses to be and I let go of needing to change her. Looking closer at how I derailed myself from being in a nice clear space...

I love what Adyashanti says in “The End of Your World: uncensored straight talk on the nature of enlightenment.” He offers that “When a person’s awakening vacillates, he or she often asks me, “How do I stay in the awakened state?” That is asking the wrong question. In spirituality, it is important that we ask the right questions. To wonder how to stay in the awakened state is a totally reasonable thing to do, but the question itself is arising from the dream state. Spirit never asks itself, “How do I stay within myself?” That would be ridiculous. It just makes no sense, coming from the true nature of things. What makes more sense is to ask how you unenlighten yourself.”

Adya further remarks, that “We are in relationship with situations and people, interacting with lovers and friends and children and all the rest. It is this gritty fabric of life where the spiritual rubber hits the road. What is required is the willingness to let life impact you; to let yourself see when life impacts you; to see if you go into any sort of separation about it, if you go into judgment, if you go into blame, if you go into “should” or “shouldn’t,” if you start to point the finger somewhere other than at yourself.... It’s coming to grips with the fact that the only person who can cause us to suffer, who can cause us to misperceive illusion and separation, who has this much power, is us.”

So how am I unenlightening myself and putting myself back into illusion with this situation?

Lots of “should’s on my part.” I have the perspective that something and someone is wrong and they should behave better. I didn’t do anything to warrant being threatened by the police and I should be treated better than this.

There is a symbolic line drawn in the sand with the “crazy” neighbour on one side and “innocent” me on the other. Separation and a big gap. Quite funny actually when I consider my history of behaviour that is far from reasonable, calm and innocent!

Everywhere I go with this, it seems to come back to acceptance and non-judgment. To simply be with the experience without adding anything to it. Allowing people to be as they are. Allowing life to impact me, feeling what arises and just being present with it. Right now, it’s all like a gentle wave that washes over me... back and forth, back and forth. Gradually, there is just the slightest of movement as things settle down. Back and forth and I feel peace, dawning recognition of myself in this other person. Easing into the flow of life... rough edges being softened and there is just a neutral feeling that remains.

Tags: inquiry, perspective, judgment, acceptance, Adyashanti, enlightenment, spirituality, separation, illusion

Self Inquiry and a Personal Lesson

http://inducingconsciousness.gaia.com — Thu, 20 Aug 2009 17:43:40 GMT

Self Inquiry and a Personal Lesson

Last night, I had quite a life lesson that came out of a short interaction with my 9 year old daughter. She was sharing a project that she had completed and the rest of our family was listening attentively. She was describing all of the objects that Abel, the mouse in her story, had packed in his sack. The list got really long and the items seemed to get bigger and bigger. I was amazed that the sack could hold a blanket and that the mouse would be able to carry it and then I burst out laughing when she added that Abel also had a tiger skin in the sack! So, something about the image of this mouse realistically, or not, carrying all of this loot around amused me no end! Yes, I laughed and loudly at that! I am not one that holds mirth in very well! I almost had to leave the room at one of our home-school choir programmes, for fear of erupting into uncontrollable giggling at something my dear daughter was probably not supposed to be doing! But, that’s another story!

Back to this one. So, out of left field, it felt to me anyway, my daughter heatedly criticised (felt more like lamblasted) my laughing at her. She later burst out crying and apologised for doing this and we were able to work through it together. The point is not really about this aspect, but about what it brought up within me as I went from feeling really centered and happy to all of a sudden feeling separate and unhappy... The self-inquiry relates to how I get disconnected from Source.

In Adyashanti’s book, “The End Of Your World: uncensored straight talk on the nature of enlightenment,” he writes about being willing to be honest with ourselves. To look and ask, “What in me can still go into division? What in me can still go into hate, into ignorance, into greed? What in me can cause me to feel divided, isolated, full of sorrow? Where are those spots in me that are less than awakened?”

Last night, I experienced many of those “spots.” I felt like someone had burst my bubble of happiness. I was laughing spontaneously at something that felt amusing and I was startled by my child's angry outburst. It felt like an attack, because it “hit” me unexpectedly.

I felt hurt that she was seemingly making me wrong and bad. It felt like I was being reprimanded for being happy and joyful. There was a momentary confusion of sorts with the shock of her response and a feeling of needing to withdraw and protect myself.

Looking back, it seemed from my body language, that there was some shame as I felt myself wanting to retreat, protect and disengage emotionally.

There must be some unconscious or hidden desire to “pay her back,” because I stopped any eye contact, ceased to “follow” her story or give any feedback. I had withdrawn my emotional support which is one way in the past I shut myself away from others. There’s got to be a belief in there about "If you hurt me, I’ll get you back."

Buried in it all, there is a profound feeling of sadness to feel thrown abruptly out of joy. Somewhere in there too is a limiting belief about outside factors affecting my moods. Also the feeling of “Why would someone do this to me?” A sadness when people don’t behave “nicely” to each other.

I can feel the whole thing again, like it’s taking place right now. I am sitting there, heart wide open, defenceless, innocent and someone throws a spear into my heart. The beliefs, thoughts and feelings flow shifting from disbelief to anger... I cannot believe that my loved one would hurt me. I feel betrayed. You’re not supposed to do this. This isn’t fair! This is not how you play. I can’t believe you did this to me. You did this. You spoiled everything. How could you?

The beliefs now shifting from anger to a desire to hurt back and seek revenge.
If that’s the way you’re going to play, I’ll show you! You don’t know who you’re messing with!

Wow! This one goes all the way back (and probably further still) to a distinct and familiar memory of when I was in school. I was about 10 or 11 and I had a picture that I had drawn with a heart on it. Inside the brightly coloured heart, the bold words, “I love me.” I was feeling completely delighted, innocent and happy with my new discovery. This was followed by an unexpected and startling reaction from my teacher who felt that I was incredibly selfish. I know that I got my palm or leg slapped with the wooden ruler. I don’t recall if there was any other punishment. There again, I was left with the feeling of betrayal. Seemingly attacked by someone who stood in a position of authority and whom I viewed as being one to cherish and protect children.

The lesson for me becomes how to remain open-hearted and connected to Source when things like this come up? How to feel compassion for us both? How to continue to love with all of my heart, remembering that we are all much more than our personalities.

What’s the truth of all of this for me? We are human and Divine in nature. When I see others as only human, I miss the bigger picture. I limit what I see before me and I limit the eyes from which I see. When I feel my connection to Source, there is the immediate knowing that I have enough love and compassion in me to maintain my connection with others no matter what. I also remember that no matter how it looks on the surface, nobody is less than Divine. The stream of love flows steady and without interruption.

Tags: inquiry, self inquiry, enlightenment, awakening, Source, connection, honesty, Adyasha

WINDOWS TO HEAVEN

http://inducingconsciousness.gaia.com — Sun, 09 Aug 2009 21:22:09 GMT

WINDOWS TO HEAVEN

A portal of light.
Opportunities,
Like windows to the heavens.

Father,
Your pearly opening,
Draws my intent gaze.

All that I am
Sinks into your quiet light.

Gentle movements across the sky.
Fluttering of leaves
And my heart beating
With a soft, rhythmic pulse.

Windows to my heart.
A flicker of light,
And I rest in heaven.

~ Nicola G. Karesh, Copyright © 2009 – All rights reserved.

Tags: heaven, God, spirituality

LIGHT EVERLASTING

http://inducingconsciousness.gaia.com — Sun, 26 Jul 2009 15:24:20 GMT

"Light Everlasting"

I am God’s light reflecting out.
I am the twinkle in your eye.

I am the vast shores by the mossy banks of Tuvalu.
I am the gaze into no-man’s land.

I am a drunken step away from perfection.
The seed of everything ready to sprout.

I am the whisper of the wind in the trees.
I am an unsteady gait across a broken stage.

I am you rising up,
Considering the endless possibilities.

I am a sailor lost at sea,
Who remembers the spark of eternity,
That he holds in his grasp.

I am the thief who for one moment in time,
Is graced with a vision of treasure,
In his birthright.

I am sorrow that catches the breeze
And opens to the freshness of life,
Sighing no more.

I am all that I am.
One endless succession of moments,
Erupting into brilliance and
Everlasting light.

Tags: God, Tuvalu, nature, possibility, eternity, vision

SWEET NOURISHMENT

http://inducingconsciousness.gaia.com — Fri, 24 Jul 2009 16:34:06 GMT

Feed my soul. Nourish my spirit with the sweet elixir that is an ever-present flow from Awareness. Source is a bottomless pool. There is no end to the rich nourishment that it provides for us. I can feel the invisible life-line that links us all to creative source... the Universal flow.

I have an image of a golden, sparkling cord with love warmly pouring through. Bubbling, magical energy dancing as we are filled up with God’s infinite magic.

My sense today, is to dip deeply into the well to water my soul. To willingly partake what is given most freely and generously. To soak up all that is good and rich and pure.

Symbolically and energetically, I feel and see my hands coming together. One supporting the other as they are lifted, palms open for the holiest of communion. Tender warmth of love washes over me as I am fed.

I pause for a moment sensing there is more. An inner prompting. A desire bubbling up? Energy wanting to move, to flow from me outwards. Spirit had not finished. The “tension” has eased with my words on the page, as the message passes on to you. Golden cords of light connected and glowing like an underground network of roots.

Nourishment comes always to the upturned soul. Branches spread wide, we open in graceful surrender to the eternal stream of life.

Our hands collectively bow in thanks. The day begins.

7/24 addition: My sense is that this source of nourishment is available to us all... no exceptions. We have the choice to turn away or face the light with an “upturned soul.”

A Call To Grace: http://tinyurl.com/knpla2

Tags: soul, spirit, awareness, source, universe, flow, love, energy, God, surrender

DEPTH OF MY SOUL

http://inducingconsciousness.gaia.com — Fri, 24 Jul 2009 16:26:14 GMT

Nothing here,
But the sweet love of Silence.
How do I scale the walls?
How do I find my way to the centre?
How do I open to this?

A feeling that spreads
As far as forever.
A love that is greater than me.
An opening that is the tiniest pin prick,
Exploding apart at the seams.

I sit on the edge
Of the greatest chasm
Feet dangling into the unknown.
Nothing to grasp.
Might as well let go.

I surrender and slip
Down into the depths
Of God’s wildest vortex.

Tags: God, silence, surrender, unknown

What would you do if you lost everything you owned?

http://inducingconsciousness.gaia.com — Tue, 21 Jul 2009 12:56:37 GMT

I had a first impression of me wailing about "my stuff!" Feeling the loss of material possessions and things that I consider "dear" to me like my pets and my home. I don't have the feeling that I own my loved ones, so I am happily excluding them from this exercise! Relief! If they were included though, just a feeling of more initial emotional distress and pain over the apparent loss...

Knowing me, I can feel that I would tell myself something to make sense of it all. Not one to leave myself in a hole for very long, I would throw myself a life-line! A reminder that even though I may not comprehend the "why," there is always a bigger picture. Feels like I would draw comfort from myself and from the realisation that no matter what, I have a spiritual connection that will always provide me with great comfort, love and peace. That being said, I would continue to feel, without censure and judgment, any feelings that came up. Sadness, grief... whatever. In the experiencing the feelings fully is the way out and through...

The order of the day literally would be to remember to line myself up with the Light and put all of my faith and trust in what is unseen but definitely felt. A feeling here of being quiet, turning within and resting in that loving beam of awareness.

Tags: QaR, loss, possessions, letting go

Inner Direction

http://inducingconsciousness.gaia.com — Wed, 08 Jul 2009 04:29:06 GMT

There is a still point within where every question can be answered. A point in no-space, where questions and answers are irrelevant. Here, everything collapses into the unknown and feeling seems to rule the day. There is a space where awareness and I are one. It feels like a merging of energies, from different directions, yet the only distance is in my mind.

It feels like when I listen with my heart, answers are felt and the inspiration for what comes next flows forth.

There is a listening that takes place, not just with my ears, but with my entire beingness. A wider listening that is as natural as breathing. An opening up to what is seen and unseen.

There is an impulse or gentle feeling to ride the wave of energy that will transport me downstream. There is the immediate accompanying thought disputing the idea of moving and transporting, for where do I really go?

All there is, is this quiet space for communing with the Divine. A soundless, wordless conversation.

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Landscapes Of My Mind

http://inducingconsciousness.gaia.com — Fri, 19 Jun 2009 05:03:00 GMT

I scan the landscape of my mind
And the moment is ripe.
Spirit is here.

There is a fullness,
As if something is about
To burst forth.

A rich texture to the moment,
And some untenable prompting
Brings me here.

I love this space!
No resistance,
Just an openness to the magic in time.

God is wielding His paintbrush today
And I am a loving audience.

I have no cares about which path to take.
No preference for what is birthed.
My attention is on the grace of
This perfect moment in time,
When I am open to the Divine.

My joy in being here,
Present and aware.
Joy in witnessing,
Spirit at play.

Tags: Spirit, space, resistance, God, grace, Divine, joy, presence, awareness, creation

Burn To Your End

http://inducingconsciousness.gaia.com — Sat, 13 Jun 2009 13:03:16 GMT

Softness wraps itself around me
And bursts into flames.

The way of the warrior
Is shrouded in mystery.
The path of the lover
Is paved in gold.
The journey of the soldier
Is riddled with pain,
Bodies and sights unimaginable.

I am the warrior, the lover
And the soldier.
I am the force who beckons angels
And repels demons.
I am it all.

Imagine that for a moment.
Containing the uncontained.
Imagine swirling the heavens,
Plunging the seas.
Rising to conquer it all,
With the softest of flames.

I am the miracle-maker.
You can bank on me,
With everything you’ve got.
I am the story-teller.
Leave nothing to chance.
I am your lover, your Father, your friend.
Enter the flames and burn to your end.

Tags: love, angels, I Am, unknown, God

The Light Of Love

http://inducingconsciousness.gaia.com — Fri, 12 Jun 2009 20:08:44 GMT

Bathing in the sweet light of love,
I come home
To beauty and
A feeling so indescribable,
I melt into the
Exquisiteness of its tenderness.

Forever cradled in serenity.
Eternally blessed
With God’s grace.
This is the peace,
That passeth all understanding.
Feeling.
Space.
Resonance with knowing
I am loved
Forever and always.

Tags: serenity, God, grace, peace, love